A decision to make

After much debate about the pros and cons of having this child (and many floods of tears), Darren finally asked me how I would feel if I terminated the pregnancy. I said I'd always wonder; I would hate myself and I didn't know if I could get past it.

Darren, to his eternal credit, once again reinforcing my love for him and at the same time humbled by what a wonderful man I'd married, said "I guess we're having a baby then." Every time I think about him saying this, I could kiss him again and again. God, I love him!

Pregnancy confirmed

The doctor confirmed my pregnancy and I discussed termination with him very briefly.

Evidence

Here's the evidence:


Darren didn't believe it and is sending me to the doctor tomorrow. We're both in a state of shock.

Week ending July 11

Thursday
Out of sorts today, probably cos I didn't get the job at the scrapbooking shop.

It rained this evening! We went and got Darren from work as something to do with the kids. Missed him which probably means I'm dreadfully pre-menstrual.
Day-rating: 2

Friday
Feeling a little low after not getting the teaching job at Penrith Scrapbook Superstore. Disappointed and keep going over how I could have done it better. I should have stuck to something more simple.

Also worried about being pregnant again. Much as I've said I so want another baby, with the grim possibility very real, I'm not feeling so confident. Too long away from little babies, I think, and worried I just won't have enough energy or time for Ryan and Caitlyn.

If nothing comes of the tutoring gig, I think I might need to consider going to Woolies or Coles and seeing about night-packing.
Day-rating: 2